Thursday, 7 August 2014

Go with the flow

As of Wednesday the 28th May I had finished my degree. As of Sunday 22nd June I no longer lived with my best friends in Swansea. As of Monday 14th July 2014 I had officially graduated Swansea University with a BA 2:1 degree in joint honours Ancient History and Egyptology. As of now, for the first time in my life I have no idea what will happen. I've got plans of course, I plan to get a job, save some money, do some  A LOT of travelling and eventually do a PGCE and become a teacher. That's what I hope to do, but I have nothing concrete, nothing sorted. For a control freak, planner, change-aphobe like me (I'm a Virgo, I am SO a Virgo) that is the scariest thing ever...

Ever since I was a little girl, I had a plan and I knew what was going to happen. I was going to spend 7 years in Primary school, then another 7 years in secondary school/sixth form, and then I was going to go to university. That was set in stone for me. I never thought about any of that not happening, I never contemplated the fact that I might not get into university. I worked hard and it was something that I knew was going to happen for me, perhaps my mind changed about which university/degree, but university was always my next step after sixth form. And sixth form was always my next step after secondary school. And now everything is up in the air and I'm anxious and scared and just a tiny bit excited. 

I know what I want. I want to get a job and travel, but for how long? Where will I go? Who will I go with? I want to eventually become a primary school teacher, but where will I do my PGCE? What age will I be when I come to do it? Where will my first teaching job be? Am I even capable of becoming a teacher? And then there's all the will I get married, will I have children questions that I don't even want to think about. I'm a worrier and a planner and this is a really, really scary time for me right now but I'm really trying to relax, to breathe and to do something I'm not sure I've ever done before... to just go with the flow. To welcome the unexpected, to embrace the change and to walk down roads that I don't know exactly where they are going to lead. I've got a plan, a very vague plan and I know where I want to end up and somethings I want/need to do on the way, but this is the perfect opportunity to sit back, relax, and let my life go where it's going to go. I'm scared and I'm excited and I'm going to take you along on this journey with me.

I've decided to fully immerse myself in blogging. I've got time, plenty of time. And I've got loads of ideas and I want somewhere to express how I'm feeling and record my adventures and document my life. It will be nice to have a constant in my life amongst all the changes that are inevitably going to occur. So that's why the blog has undergone a makeover, thanks to the lovely Amy from The Little Koala 

I'm scared and excited, but I think it's going to be okay. I think it might even be fun!

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