I’m fed up with my body and I want to do something about it. So I’m going to. I’m going to eat well and get some exercise. I used to be super sporty but now I’m so unfit it’s ridiculous, like “hello asthma attack whenever I get out of bed” unfit. And I have really put on some weight recently. I don’t feel comfortable in anything I own!
But what is the point in bitching about it? There is none. So I’m going to shut up and fix it. I know my boyfriend is fed of hearing me complain about something but doing nothing about it so I’m going to start doing something about. And I’m going to take you guys along with me, on my ‘weight loss journey’.
I feel it’s important to say that I really don’t think there is anything wrong with being ‘bigger’ or ‘skinny’ or ‘curvy’ or whatever and I’m not losing weight because I think being ‘fat’ is vile and only ‘skinny’ people are happy or bla bla bla because that is all absolute bullshit. ‘Thin’ or ‘fat’ or whatever, the most important thing is to be comfortable and confident in your body, not for other people but for you. If you feel happy in your body but someone happens to say “you’re too fat” or “you’re too skinny”, ignore them. Your body is about you and if you’re comfortable and happy that’s all that matters. The point is, I’m not comfortable or happy with my body. It slows me down physically and mentally and I just keep thinking “this is my body, why is it working against me!? Aren’t we meant to be a team?” But then I remember how bad I’ve treated it over the years and it’s really no wonder. I’m going to start treating my body right, getting it healthy and making it something I’m proud of and happy with and then I’ll be comfortable and happy and confident.
I am not happy, comfortable or confident because I am not healthy. For the past 21 years I have eaten and drank rubbish. I could (and sometimes do eek) get through a 2 litre bottle of coke a day and I have a really bad relationship with food, days go by with me hardly eating a thing and then I’ll get so hungry I just binge for a few days, then go back to not really feeling like eating… It’s pretty bad. Fortunately, despite me being the unhealthiest person ever I've not really seen or felt the dame. Despite drinking way too much sugar, the dentist has always been impressed with my teeth, I don’t normally have bad skin. Recently though my body has been trying to send me a message and I think I understand now. It’s trying to say “Hey, Becky. I’ve put up with this shit for long enough now. No more. GIVE ME A BREAK!”
My body has just been feeling so odd lately. My stomach’s been doing crazy things, my skins starting to look unhealthy and I’m just constantly feeling blurgh. I think because I’ve felt fine with the way I’ve been eating I’ve never really thought of the side effects that come from putting so much crap into my body but now I’m going to make a conscience effort to change my eating habits. I’m going to MAJORLY cut down on my coke (sigh, that’s going to be so hard.. it just tastes so friggin’ good!) drink at least a pint of water a day and make sure that I have dinner every day, even when I don’t feel hungry. Since becoming a vegetarian, the things I’m actually putting on to my plate are a lot healthier and so this year I’m going to expand on that and start treating my body, as the saying goes, like a temple. Do you hear that? That’s my body breathing a sigh of relief and screaming “FINALLY!”
I’m not going to write how much I weigh right now as I’d be a little embarrassed by it but every month I’m going to do a little blog weigh in where I say how much I’ve lost each month and how I’ve done with my eating/exercising. I also thought it might be fun/easier if other bloggers who are trying to lose weight get involved too and at the end of every month write a post about how your month has gone, what you found difficult/easy and any tips you want pass on. Losing weight is always easier if you’re doing it with others.
So let me know if anyone’s going to blog their own ‘weight loss journey’, I’d really love to read them! And good luck to anyone on a mission to lose weight.