I’m fed up with my body and I
want to do something about it. So I’m going to. I’m going to eat well and get
some exercise. I used to be super sporty but now I’m so unfit it’s ridiculous,
like “hello asthma attack whenever I get out of bed” unfit. And I have really
put on some weight recently. I don’t feel comfortable in anything I own!
But what is the point in bitching
about it? There is none. So I’m going to shut up and fix it. I know my
boyfriend is fed of hearing me complain about something but doing nothing about
it so I’m going to start doing something about. And I’m going to take you guys
along with me, on my ‘weight loss journey’.
I feel it’s important to say that
I really don’t think there is anything wrong with being ‘bigger’ or ‘skinny’ or
‘curvy’ or whatever and I’m not losing weight because I think being ‘fat’ is
vile and only ‘skinny’ people are happy or bla bla bla because that is all
absolute bullshit. ‘Thin’ or ‘fat’ or whatever, the most important thing is to
be comfortable and confident in your body, not for other people but for you. If
you feel happy in your body but someone happens to say “you’re too fat” or “you’re
too skinny”, ignore them. Your body is about you and if you’re comfortable and happy that’s all that matters. The point is,
I’m not comfortable or happy with my body. It slows me down physically and
mentally and I just keep thinking “this is my
body, why is it working against me!? Aren’t we meant to be a team?” But then I remember
how bad I’ve treated it over the years and it’s really no wonder. I’m going to
start treating my body right, getting it healthy and making it something I’m
proud of and happy with and then I’ll be comfortable and happy and confident.
I am not happy, comfortable or confident because I am not healthy. For the past 21 years I have
eaten and drank rubbish. I could (and sometimes do eek) get through a 2 litre bottle of coke a day and I have a really
bad relationship with food, days go by with me hardly eating a thing and then
I’ll get so hungry I just binge for a few days, then go back to not really
feeling like eating… It’s pretty bad. Fortunately, despite me being the
unhealthiest person ever I've not really seen or felt the dame. Despite
drinking way too much sugar, the dentist has always been impressed with my
teeth, I don’t normally have bad skin. Recently though my body
has been trying to send me a message and I think I understand now. It’s trying
to say “Hey, Becky. I’ve put up with this shit for long enough now. No more. GIVE
ME A BREAK!”
My body has just been feeling so odd lately. My stomach’s been doing
crazy things, my skins starting to look unhealthy and I’m just constantly
feeling blurgh. I think because I’ve
felt fine with the way I’ve been eating I’ve never really thought of the side
effects that come from putting so much crap into my body but now I’m going to
make a conscience effort to change my eating habits. I’m going to MAJORLY cut
down on my coke (sigh, that’s going to be so hard.. it just tastes so friggin’
good!) drink at least a pint of water a day and make sure that I have dinner
every day, even when I don’t feel hungry. Since becoming a vegetarian, the
things I’m actually putting on to my plate are a lot healthier and so this year
I’m going to expand on that and start treating my body, as the saying goes,
like a temple. Do you hear that? That’s my body breathing a sigh of relief
and screaming “FINALLY!”
I’m not going to write how much I
weigh right now as I’d be a little embarrassed by it but every month I’m going
to do a little blog weigh in where I say how much I’ve lost each month and how I’ve
done with my eating/exercising. I also thought it might be fun/easier if other
bloggers who are trying to lose weight get involved too and at the end of every
month write a post about how your month has gone, what you found difficult/easy
and any tips you want pass on. Losing weight is always easier if you’re doing
it with others.
So let me know if anyone’s going
to blog their own ‘weight loss journey’, I’d really love to read them! And good
luck to anyone on a mission to lose weight.
